Breathe....just breathe...

And this is my mantra of the day. Today has been a roller coaster of a ride, and if it is okay with you, I just need to offload a little...

My registration has arrived, so the inevitable has had to happen..today I enrolled my Monkey into childcare. I feel so sad, which I suppose is to be expected a little bit. He is my first born, my little preemie boy, and I haven't gone a day without him by my side. I don't know how I'm going to cope leaving him there when the time comes. (Thankfully, the centre is understanding of a very anxious PND Mama like myself and lets us have a weaning period for however long we need). B.R.E.A.T.H.E

I have been applying for jobs and getting my name out there for relieving in the meantime. But it has been the holidays here in little ol' NZ, so responses have been slow forthcoming. Hubby is also anxious as his job is coming to a close, so my anxiety continues to climb..B.R.E.A.T.H.E

I have no idea how the weight loss is going as everything has been buried in the overwelming need to get me into employment. 

If you are a praying person reading this, spare my petite family a thought next time you are in your quiet place...I think we need all the help we can get!!

Happy extra hour of sleep everyone!

Day light savings has been and gone and we are now officially on the countdown to the shortest day of the year...after Easter of course! My monkey has transitioned really well (thanks to being ill with a virus) - Saturday night he dropped 14 hours worth of sleep (wooohoooo!), and a good 12 hours last night. It really bites that he isn't well, but I am very grateful for smooth transitions!

I'm making progress on the weight loss front - almost 10kg down. I've dropped a good dress size, and my pants are actually doing up. The most pleasing (for me anyway) side effect is my post c-section apron is lifting!! I can actually see the scar now (apologies if that is TMI). My legs are slimming down, and I can even see a little bit in my face. Long may it continue. By spring I hope to be under 100kg. Lets see what I can accomplish!

The is a lot happening in our little corner of the world at the moment. We sold our house in Hamilton (which was causing a lot of financial worries), hubby has enrolled in study, and I have re-applied for my teaching registration. To be brutally honest, that scares the living snot out of me. I have always vowed that I wouldn't have someone else looking after and raising my son - I know others do it, but I just don't feel comfortable with it. So filling out the necessary paperwork was enough to make me leak at the seams. But it is done, and I'm only committing to a day a week at this stage, possibly two. Help me talk myself into this :s.

Easter preparation is coming along..buns made yesterday, and looking forward to going Easter egg shopping for my monkey once the magic money appears in my account! I hope my willpower will withstand the indulgence of Easter.

Biscous xxxx