We drove the 20minutes across town, and freaked out at the number of people at the lake - holy moly! Then a light dawning moment, of course its busy, its school holidays!! A few deep breathing exercises and a cuddle with my boy later, my friend and her daughter arrived, sigh, relief! I can focus on her and her little girl, and the rest of the mayhem can fade into the background. Ahhhhh much better, smiling both inside and out!
I'm suitably impressed with myself and Cale - we managed 4 hours at the lake, AND WE HAD A GOOD TIME!! I am so pleased I took the risk today, it would have been very easy to stay at home. I remember something my Nana once said "It is within the risk that we grow". It's scary, but I'm learning to be courageous again. And I'm learning that if I can't do it for myself, then I will absolutely do it for my little boy.
We have to learn to be our own best friends because we fall too easily into the trap of being our own worst enemies.